The Book
Afraid To Fart
And the fine art of following through. A memoir about the body, fear, shame, blindness, healing and learning to trust yourself again. Funny in places. Uncomfortable in others. Entirely true.
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What's the book about?
That depends on when you ask me.
At first I thought it was about IBS. Then I thought it was about trauma. Then blindness. Then shame. Then family. Then fear. Now I think it's about what happens when the body spends years trying to tell us something we aren't ready to hear.
Afraid To Fart is a personal story about illness, survival, nervous systems, identity, healing and the strange places those journeys sometimes lead us. It's also about learning to laugh at things we spend far too much energy hiding.
35 chapters, 400 pages
What's inside
The full contents, front to back.
- Before You Read This Bookp.13
- Introduction — When the Body Breaks Down, Change the Fuel, Not the Enginep.15
Chapter 1: You Can't Say That!
The Same Spell and the Gospel According to Me
Page 29
Chapter 2: Blind Faith!
How losing my sight led me to seeing the shit that truly matters
Page 41
Chapter 3: The Silent But Deadly Origins
The litter, the charabanc, and the day Cinderella made me raw
Page 49
Chapter 4: The Penetrating Poo Print!
Finger-painted fear and the vigilance of watching for shit
Page 57
Chapter 5: Leaks, Layers and Loops
The Shame Loop™ and the secret life of fearful fascia
Page 61
Chapter 6: Grandad's Rotten Demons
Ancestral spirits, bad brew, and the Guinness gut genome. 'The family that drinks together, stinks together'
Page 65
Chapter 7: A Meta-MEDIZIN Digression
When science starts speaking shit
Page 67
Chapter 8: My Nan and the Golden Octopus
Eight arms of love, loss, and loo roll
Page 71
Chapter 9: The Bag of Gold
Nan's alchemy and the transmutation of shit into shine
Page 78
Chapter 10: Perfect Marion and the Gag Reflex
When swallowing becomes a survival skill
Page 88
Chapter 11: The Smelly Car Soup
The scene of the fart: savouring the saving sense of humour
Page 98
Chapter 12: Dirty Secrets, Divine Mothers
The shiny knobs and knockers, the secret stains, hidden stench, and the birth of radical forgiveness
Page 100
Chapter 13: Learning to Say No Without Exploding
Politeness, puffiness, and the physics of pent-up emotion
Page 114
Chapter 14: 'Mucosa Mia'
Snail trails, snot, and the secret life of holy slime
Page 124
Chapter 15: The Mushroom Runaway
How I found home on a housing estate and heaven on a dancefloor
Page 128
Chapter 16: Farting Frolics
Sherbet lemons, ciggies, and schoolgirl sorcery
Page 132
Chapter 17: Psychedelics and Sanango
From noisy stools to sacred schools. The chemistry of spirit molecules, mystical maths, and the mudslide of inner transformation
Page 136
Chapter 18: Blind Rage, Broken Bones and Breached Boundaries
Downward dog, the Queen of Rot and the art of falling apart gracefully
Page 146
Chapter 19: Bone Broth and Holy Water
Alchemy in a stew pot – the gravy of the gods
Page 158
Chapter 20: Shaman T and the Laughter Cure
How to giggle your way out of the abyss
Page 170
Chapter 21: The Psoas and the Prophet
Sufis, tremors, and the body's hidden gospel
Page 174
Chapter 22: The Day the Dalai Lama Came to Town
Durga's eight arms and divine shitstorms
Page 178
Chapter 23: Downward Dog and Digestive Fire
Yoga, humiliation, and the holy colon
Page 182
Chapter 24: One Hundred Men in a Row
Caste, class, and the cosmology of crap
Page 186
Chapter 25: Dirty Bitch, Divine Feminine
Barbados, Uncle Ted, and the birth of boundaries
Page 194
Chapter 26: I Didn't Mean to Poo in Public
Page 198
Chapter 27: Belize, Bloating and the Bush-Mad House
Exile, madness, and the jungles of integration
Page 204
Chapter 28: The GP and the Gut
When MEDIZIN meets Meta-MEDIZIN in the consulting room
Page 210
Chapter 29: The Octavia Codes
Autoimmunity, forgiveness, and the true self
Page 214
Chapter 30: The Torrent
Brazil, the visa, and digesting the indigestible
Page 226
Chapter 31: 'You Can't Say That' and the 'Find Your WHY' Talk
Pricks and boundaries: reclaiming the right to say what you like
Page 238
Chapter 32: Viruses and Egypt
Meta-MEDIZIN, mortification, and Greg's embarrassing moment
Page 246
Chapter 33: Màire and the Template
EFT, kinesiology, and the architecture of the soul
Page 258
Chapter 34: The Night of Shite
Ayahuasca, grounding, and finding what you actually want
Page 268
Chapter 35: The Fine Art of Following Through
Family constellations, forgiveness, and the fart that freed the world
Page 276
- The Endp.290
- Before You Continuep.291
- About Marion Bevingtonp.293
- Note to the Readerp.295
- Appendix: The Meta-Medizin Thesis, or How to Turn Crap into Clarityp.299
In their own words
Reader voices
“I feel more relaxed and calm because I feel clearer about who I am, and what I am going to do. Plus understand that everything I've done so far has been done with the best intentions.”
“I had a wonderful time. I learnt how to move my body in different ways that was comfortable for it. Each time I do a session I learn something new and understand my body's needs better.”
“I've worked with Marion before and always enjoyed our classes, but this was the first time I've gone on a retreat with her. Wow, it was another level. Every movement was explained in a way that made sense — how it released or created energy and soothed the body. For the first time I actually felt that energy moved and flowed through me. I felt deeply relaxed, in fact totally blissed out most of the time, and genuinely connected in a way I've never experienced before. I could feel real changes happening in my body, not just during the retreat but afterwards too. I would highly recommend her — she's amazing.”
About the author
Marion Bevington — blind writer, yoga therapist, lifelong pattern-spotter.
Former software engineer. Trauma-informed practitioner. After decades working in technology, she became fascinated by a different kind of system — the human one. Her work brings together lived experience, systems thinking, yoga, trauma awareness and a deep curiosity about how people adapt, survive and heal. She writes the way she speaks: honestly, directly, emotionally and usually with a very dry sense of humour.
Read the long version of Marion's story →
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Same words. Two covers.
The standard edition (sheep amongst wolves) is the everyday one. The special edition (Ganesha on snot green) is reserved for the Famalam — Marion's community.
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Things people ask
What do I get for £8.88 a month?
A live monthly group call with Marion (90 minutes), member-only essays and audio, an archive of past calls, and a small private space for members to ask questions and share what they're working on.Who is Marion Bevington?
I'm the woman who wrote this book from the toilet, using dictation software, because by the time I finally got serious about writing it down, I'd also gone blind. Before that I designed software and taught yoga — so I've spent most of my adult life either fixing systems or trying to help people trust their own. Turns out the gut is both.Is this a medical book? Will it cure my IBS?
No, and I won't pretend otherwise. I'm not a doctor, and this isn't a prescription. What I can tell you is that I healed my own IBS, and I've watched thousands of clients get real relief using the same approach — treating symptoms as messages instead of malfunctions. Some of what's in here is practical. Some of it is a bit out there. All of it is what actually worked, not what sounded good in a pitch meeting. See your GP for anything that needs a GP. Read this for everything your GP doesn't have time to ask you about.Can I cancel anytime?
Yes. One click in your account. No exit interview, no "are you sure", no friction. If you're not getting value, please leave.Is this a Facebook group?
No. We don't use Facebook. The members' space is on the site, behind your account login.Is the audiobook included with the eBook?
The eBook is £4.44 on its own. The bundle including the audiobook (narrated by Marion and her co-author Cheryl Chapman) is £11.11. The audiobook contains the original interview that started the whole project.Is this site accessible for blind and visually impaired readers?
Yes. This site is built accessibility-first. Every page can be listened to using the Listen button, every interaction works by keyboard, and the type is set in Atkinson Hyperlegible — a typeface designed by the Braille Institute for low-vision readers. Colour and contrast follow WCAG 2.2 AA.Is there a guarantee?
Yes. There's a 14-day no-questions-asked money-back guarantee on all digital products. If the book isn't right for you, email customercare@afraidtofart.com within 14 days of purchase and we'll refund you in full.Is the book suitable for men?
Yes. IBS affects men and women, and the book speaks to anyone whose gut, voice or self has been holding things in. The Pooing Personality Quiz was designed as an easy way in for the men in your life who might benefit but wouldn't pick up a book like this on their own.How long is the book?
The book has 35 numbered chapters plus an introduction, "Before You Read This Book", "Before You Continue", "About Marion Bevington", a note to the reader and an appendix — 400 pages in total.Do I need to be spiritual to enjoy this book?
Not at all. The book meets you where you are — whether you're spiritual, sceptical, curious, burnt out, or just here because you laughed at the title. There's no required belief system, no gurus, and no bypassing real symptoms with vague spiritual language.How will I receive my purchase?
All products are digital and delivered instantly. After payment you'll receive a download link on the confirmation page and a follow-up email with access details. No waiting. No physical shipping.What is Afraid to Fart, exactly?
It's the core textbook for everything I do — a trauma-informed look at IBS, shame, and the body's intelligence. It pulls together gut-brain science, energy psychology, somatics, a little spiritual irreverence, and humour as medicine. If you've been told you're "fine" and your body keeps insisting otherwise, this is the place to start.Is my payment secure?
Yes. Payments are processed via Stripe — encrypted in transit and never stored on our servers. Your card details are safe with us. Your farts… less so.
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